Lessons from 2019: Maybe Not?

How time flies. 

Just yesterday, you smiled at someone on the street saying to yourself, will they notice me...

It feels like a few hours ago when you went to the subway to catch a train, didn't matter if it was full, just squeezed yourself in. 

Wasn't it yesterday when you were drunk driving, seated at some space in the bar, thinking about life's worries, cuddling the thoughts of quitting, trying again, suicide maybe?

I wonder if you remember turning down that interview, that date! that offer, that moment to just do something to live! I remember you saying other chances will come. I remember you told me, its never that serious! something else will turn up. 

Did i not suggest we take a break from the world, and just meet up and talk! Did I not suggest that we take a break from our phones.. Or didn't I? I wonder if it was me who always cancelled our plans, I wonder if it was me who said no to living. 

I wonder if we could go back just a few months earlier when no damn disease would hit us

Oh I wonder if, i could smile back at yah, now I suffocate in the damn mask wondering if you would see me. Now its a battle between less breaths, and when will i be alone to take this mask off. 

But wait, now we've got fresh air in the trains right? Now i am sure i wouldn't meet anyone drunk on the street, making reckless decision against anyone looking vulnerable. Now is the time to walk anywhere with any device; maybe no thief will touch it, it could be infected. 

Owh how clean the streets look, fumigating has worked wonders while we tuck ourselves in the house after 7pm. Ohw look at that, everyone's hand is clean, perfect time for a handshake, MAYBE NOT...😒

Please maintain a 1-5 metres distance, he said...

How disciplined we all looked while shopping the other day. Damn, the curfew is almost up. We took the essentials and left.

Ohw you should have seen the look on the doctor's face when i listed my symptoms. Then came the questions; are you coughing? No, Sneezing? No, Any Fever? No.. Ohw just a chest pain? Yes doctor... But we need to check that out, he said. Oh how relieved I was to leave the hospital. 

Now, I wonder where everyone has taken their life's worries. (I'll be damned if you take it out on my blog). 

Where in the world are you cuddling these thoughts, in the house. Oh speaking of, damn it finally feels like home, finally this ain't just a house, finally, home-made meals, finally! Ohw finally

Ohw! hold on, everyone's on their phone at home, Ohw the damn whatsapp group calls, Ohw, look at that, another ZOOM invite. There goes a salsa class online (But how). 

Oh hey staff!! we all going to work from home. Work from home? Yes sounds nice.. But wait, I want to watch this movie, damn have i checked social media.. Damn whats cooking in the kitchen... let me check it out. Ohw shittt, when is this work due... Please tell me how do we work from home.   

How time flies...

You wish time could start flying backwards, so that you could see some disease coming. Maybe you would better understand the first lesson: Living

How I wish time could just stop. Just for a second. Maybe then the number of those infected will stop increasing. 

I wonder how Egyptians faced the plagues, maybe they would better prepare us. I wonder if i want to turn a year older today, whats more to come? 

Yes, just say it, this too shall pass. and then, we will forget. Worst Tsunami ever, floods, earthquakes, terrorist attacks; yet we forgot. 

Maybe one day, you and i will come back here and say, as we always do, its never that serious, see, it passed. We back to normalcy.

I wonder though, Should we forget? Somebody tell me this one, even if it shall pass, will it be the last?